101nirvana

when i saw you in the car
with a hot 101 sun and we hadn't showered since yesterday morning
the cigarette and the thick pot smoke tangled up in our skulls
with your sunglasses and cobain singing dumb
and then heavy
5 years younger and there you are
but now and iloveyou
but you change
and i question the line
between me now
and me
when your mind was infected with nirvana
and where we dangled
and collided
and where i've gone and where you are
and who you are
and how i know
and what i don't.

let's talk about ourselves
let's be afraid together
let's get pissed off and yell like i tell you i hate your politics and then we laugh and smoke and get sushi and complain about capitalism
let's see things and do
i want to break through something without a barrier
i want you to be there
i dont' understand the world of connections but strange things happen to us
that must mean something
in all this craziness
you are here
like the twirl of a rose when raindrops burst from the petals
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