Ouroboros Over a Week

I am a shadow
Craving light
And bending with it
And away.

I am light
Carved around a shadow
Unable to penetrate
Burning and afraid
And helpless.

I am invisible
Melting and erupting
Into stacks of Me’s and What If’s and You’s and Him And Her and Them and Those and This and Fuck That
Forever.

I am an escape
In search of comfort, in search of a prison
Safety from
What I can handle
What I fear
What I don’t want, what I do.

I am love
(d)/(ly)/(less)
Swirling into Sundae – (just past)
Scooping up the remains
Dropping them like sprinkles
Picking up the pieces

I sometimes don’t move
I sometimes don’t scream
I sometimes punch, sometimes punched
I rarely trust – trust takes time, trust takes fear, trust takes love, trust takes shadows, and invisibility and escapes and light and ice cream Sundaes and.
I sometimes think it’s too much to handle.
and get nowhere.
But here, to myself, and to everyone else again and forever.
thanks.